You and Me

You are easy, you are daring,
you are everything I yearn.
I am shy and confused,
brimmed with concern.

You walk tall through the crowd
and mingle with a smile.
I stand far and keep watching
till I know that I'll be fine.

I watch you growing perfect,
I feel I want to be such
and every time I stumble,
my heart will sink in deeper.

I love you,loathe you, want you
My victory,joy all lie there.
I know I'm just being stupid
But is love ever unfare?

Now I want you more than ever
I sleep with you in dreams
and kiss you like a sickness
flowing through my veins.

So I skip my pride and confess
It doesn't take much effort;
It feels like it's all written
and we belong to each other;

I start to know you slowly,
read the lines in your eyes;
I dig in for what's hidden
or what all made me surprized;

More I explore, more I find
your innocence and childishness
what's kept like a secret
underneath your robust face!

Delicate and so simple,
your heart keeps me in pressure
the dream now gets broken
I see you're nothing special;

Doubt starts to grow in
soon it turns to hatred
I can't stand you no more
please leave me before you regret;

But you love me like a sick kid
won't leave me for no reason;
I beg you, threat you, chase you
but you don't want to move on;

I break you till you bend;
then i kiss you your last goodbye;
Although it's all over
you might take some more time;

I am back on where I started
a feet more from the crowd;
But you don't look the same now
You make no one proud.

Deprived from the pleasure
you're broken, weak and sore;
What you want and can do
you don't know anymore!

I look at you in pity
and disgust for myself;
Feel like I'm a poison
should be kept away from all men;

And here I am; here you are!
Setting examples...
I know you hate me, so do I;
but know, you're no better yourself;